Dad, Dutch, Ex and You!

Finally arrived at my room! i have lot of things to share, but first i'll told you bout yesterday.

yesterday when i was havin my brunch with my friends at mcd, suddenly an old man wearing an army suit came in. i think he is about 70s. he came there alone, i was wondering is he live alone? where's his children? and his wife? or maybe his friend? he's totally alone. thats remind me of my dad, he's a policeman and he's proud of his job. now he's still healthy and strong, but what will happen in 10 years? i dont know, only God knows. i hope i can be always beside him and also my family. i dont wanna see my daddy feel lonely. maybe from now on i have to spend more time with you. sorry that i've always talked to mom first if there's a problem. but you should know one thing that the main reason is i dont wanna bother you with my small problems. i've tried to solve it first before i told mommy. now i feel guilty to you dad. i'm so sorry....

i think the materials of dutch gettin difficult. sometimes there's a give up feeling in my heart. i dunno whether i'll get the scholarship or not. whether i'll passed the test or not. whether my scores good or bad. and i know i hate to struggle to pursue my dream. but i havent felt the spirit yet. dunno why.

after broke up with "him" i think i wanna chill out a lil bit, but there's someone that always makes me curious bout him. but i dont think i take it seriously, still confuse. sometimes he gave me a nice text, sometimes he only read it without reply the text. he's more mature from me, for the age and also the way he thought. if maybe i cant be his gf, i would love to his bestfriend cause i think he's really a nice guy :)

tomorrow i have a class at 8am, we're on the same building, i hope you'll gimme the best smile that you had :) now its time to sleep!

Tot ziens!